DREAM: Night of 2-2-2010 (morning Dream)
I was with a guy and a girl and we got into a car ( I don’t remember what preceded this) and I started to drive off. They said that we were going to this other place and I needed to turn around, I said, no, we are going – here (this other place) – and they insisted that it was the other, so I said, okay, I’ll turn around up here. Just up the street was a rotary (round-about) and I started around it. I was going a little fast, so I said to everyone to “hold on!”. It was fun and then as I got around to go back the way I came, I was going to fast and ended up on the grass driving along the street. I was going to fast and was having a hard time getting back on to the road. I noticed a cop on the other side of the road with it’s lights on (it was a divided road and he was on the opposite side), but no one pulled over. I thought that he must have just finished pulling someone over and if he sees me, he will come after me because I am driving on the grass. I still couldn’t get over to the road and as we passed the cop I looked at him to see if he saw me and he did; he pointed angrily for me to pull over. I slowed a little and tossed stopping or going. I knew he couldn’t just turn around and come after me, so that would give me time to get ahead and maybe get away. I decided to get away. Slowing down, allowed me to back on the road and I drove into a town area. I was not speeding anymore, so that if he did catch me, he couldn’t give me a speeding ticket too. I was looking for a good street to turn down that he might not catch me on. I passed a few streets, some with traffic lights and some just streets; and then decided to go down this one – it had a traffic light I think. As I turned down it, there were 3 or 4 cars ahead of me and there were big trash cans covering most of the street and trash and stuff all over. You could get around the trash to the left which was a little longer or to the right, which cut a little out. I went to the right, and as I passed the trash, I saw that I could cut ahead of the other cars -it felt like they were going to hold me up or back and I would be stuck behind them it felt like they were going to hold me up or back and I would be stuck behind them – if I sped up which I did. I kind of cut of the first car a little, but managed to get ahead of them and started up the road – it was a big hill – and it was going in the same direction now that I was going originally, before I turned around on the rotary. As I drove up, it slowly turned into a hard packed dirt road, getting steeper and steeper. It got so steep that I wasn’t sure we would be able to make it. I was leaning forward in my seat (like it would help with traction). I could feel (see) the wheels slipping a little. Then they caught traction again and the hill started to get less steep and it was a little easier. I could see the top, but woke up before getting there.
REFLECTION:
I felt as I awoke that the cop was an aspect that was trying to get me back on track. And, after looking at it more… I wonder why if he was there to point out my mistake, why I felt so strongly that I needed to get away from him. Maybe it was fear of facing myself. Then with further reflection it seems that he was telling me to stop in a way that “would get me in trouble”. As in something in my world that would force me to stop – like a stroke
After talking about it with my mom that morning, it was pretty wild to see some of the symbolism so clearly. I was heading to where I knew to go and the people with me convinced me to go the other way – not listening to our inner knowing and allowing others or other aspects of ourselves to dissuade us from going in the direction we know we need to be going in; causing more obstacles and challenges.
Obviously, when I turned around, going to fast (not taking the time to go clearly/rushing) I got off the road. Even thought the road was in the opposite direction, I couldn’t even stay on the road part.
Slowing down offered a little sight and clarity and I was able to get back on the road and start looking for a different direction. I was able to see what I was doing and maek eforts to find my way back.
The road I chose was full of crap that I had to get around – how appropriate is that! Often when we get off track, it takes going through a lot of “Crap” to find our way back.
I chose “right” and was able to get ahead of the cars that were holding me back (other people or situations that I need to work around).
By turning “right” again after the trash, I was finally heading back in the direction I was going originally before I allowed myself to be swayed into turning around. (I had found my way back towards where I needed to be heading al along.
And this time,the road was much more difficult (steep and slippery dirt). And with perseverance and determination, I could make it through and I could see that it was going to get easier as the road became less slippery and the hill became less steep and I was able to see the crest. By not giving up or in and staying true to our beings, we can overcome our obstacles and make our way back to where we are heading…
The challenging roads are sometimes the greatest gift as the growth and experience that we gain from such ventures allows us that much more clarity. And, it is always a choice we have. It can be an easy road… And, I have yet to meet anyone who has learned the easy way consistently
We thrive on challenges and obstacles. They give us a sense of accomplishment and achievement.
May you all be blessed with foresight, clarity and love on YOUR journeys.
