The dictionary defines hope as: “1 : to cherish a desire with anticipation”. For me it is something bigger and has become something much bigger than even that. It is a belief in something bigger than me. That something that lies deep within me, giving me just enough strength to carry on and allows me to see the light that I know is there. It is the sustenance of my being. And ties, no, weaves within Faith; which is defined as: “firm belief in something for which there is no proof”. Which again, for me, is something much bigger than that. That something that is so much bigger than me. It is that something that is what “us” is made of, created from and is part of. And both of these have been given to me, reawakened within me, once again; in amazing strength and power. I was allowing myself to lose them. To get lost in the stubborn and often self-destructive humanness, that for so long I have tried to subdue, diminish, turn off and get away from. It is not an easy path that has been chosen. In fact, it is the most challenging path I have ever taken and it is also the most powerfully fulfilling, enriching, beautiful, magical and soul enveloping. It has taught me lifetimes worth of things about myself, about others and about the true meaning of hope, faith and love. When we allow them to have free reign within us, they ARE indestructible and they are able to overcome any obstacle. That’s not the right way to put it. It is not just overcoming; it is a healing from deep within. It is allowing the love of another as one with the love within and the love for another to all come together to caress our souls and wrap us in the truth of that something that is so much bigger than the individual… To say I am blessed seems to diminish where I look from right now. That human in me still does not feel worthy and is still so sad for my actions. It will take time I suppose… And the joy of connection, of hope, faith and belief in the true meaning, power and beauty of love are coursing through my being and my human. “Us” is truly unconquerable. There is something so much bigger than me and it is made of love; a love that transcends any type of definition or description. That something is my strength again to try with all I have and to love all the facets of the individual; not necessarily like them, but love them and honor them. For as an angel, my angel, said to me recently; in honoring our humanness as well as our being, we honor that something; the “Us”. My gratitude cannot be expressed enough as I step forward with renewed strength and resolve. Thank you.
Namaste

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